Hi. My name is Jocelyn and I’m a chocoholic and its been 4 days since my last man-made, sugar infested, heavenly coated, blood meddling, yummy but dangerous piece of chocolate. Yes it has been 4 days and I’m pretty stoked to have come this far. It has not been an easy 4 days BUT and there sadly is always a but, it is only chocolate and lollies I have gone without thus far. Small steps is what I tell my self on a daily basis so that I don’t fall into a tub of gooey chocolate that will suffocate me into previous behaviours. I am wisely allocating just 2 farewells at the moment so that I don’t fail like all my other past attempts. I have picked on these 2 to start with regardless of the fact they are the most divine inventions ever made by man. Coming down out of sugar heaven is not a nice thing to endure. Probably not nice for the people around me either which is why I tend to hibernate over these initial days until I can attempt to be semi human again. The headaches are slowly subsiding. The “I’m about to devour it all” glare is still there along with the “pop eye look” when I spy something sweet, but both are getting more controllable on an hourly basis. Minute by minute, hour by hour and one day at a time is all I can cope with right now. If I can make it to the end of the day then that is all the goal I can muster without a failure lurking. I must admit that the last 4 days feels more like a month and then that would have to be the worst month ever. I am extremely tired, wasted, lethargic, un coordinated, grumpy and high tempered. My fuse is short and I have one nerve left hovering on completely snapping in half. Nothing is funny on any level and it is a struggle to laugh when all I want to do is go and buy a bag of pineapple lumps, suck the chocolate off and then gorge the chewy fake pineapple bits in the middle. This all could be worse because whilst I am enduring these withdrawals I will admit to still having some sweet temptations in my bad food accountability. I have snuck a biscuit or 2 (that’s all I am admitting too) I have had ice-cream and I have had some potato chips. They will be eliminated slowly and methodically as I attempt to turn my food lifestyle around. I am hoping if I do it this way then there will be sure success. There is a saying, all things in moderation but I have obviously lost the moderation aspect of it and stuck strictly to the all things part of it. So whilst this 4th day is closing I shall go and get my fake potato chips and go and have a good munch. Cabbage sliced thinly and eaten elephantly. Sorry hubby. There might be competition tomorrow morning in breaking the sound barrier….